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- Sep 25, 1977
- United States
- Deviant for 13 years
- She / Her
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I've lost too much and don't know where I'm going.
I've always loved you
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I know you'll probably never see this, but I don't know where else to put it. I have always loved you. For a time I made my best effort to move on. I gave my all to move on and put everything I had into moving on with someone new after two years of grieving your loss. But even though I pushed aside my thoughts of you, I never stopped loving you. I gave everything I had to this new start...it was only when that turned out to be a lie that I again began to mourn you.
I never blamed you for what happened. I always only wished that I had done more to let you know how much you meant to me. I only ever wished for your happiness, even if it
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Lost My Grandmother Today
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She had surgery to amputate part of her right leg a couple months ago. She had an infection and ended up back in the hospital and had two more surgeries. They ended up taking her knee and she wasn't doing well. They had moved her to a nursing home, but she was having a lot of pain and was very depressed. Today she had a fever and then while my cousin was talking to her she went into diabetic shock. She was gone before my dad could get Jenn and me out of the house to get there.
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What would you do?
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If you lost everything...if you knew that someone had done it to you... What would you do if no one believed you? If you had no one to turn to? If no one would help? ...if no one would listen... If you were left alone to deal with your loss...would you find the will to fight? Or would you give up...broken because those you loved and depended on had walked away and left you to die?
If anyone even reads this, I'm sure they'll think I'm either crazy or diluted. How can I really expect any more of a stranger when those who used to care about me don't even believe me?
There really are things in this world unseen that can hurt you. They can kill.
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Thanks for the 
Sorry you've been suffering. I'm wishing you love, health and the ability to create happiness for yourself and others.
Depression is a terrible thing. I've had it myself. You think it's never ending, but that's part of its spell.
I found great solace in getting out into nature. I was able to meditate (just be quiet and let thoughts come and go, not holding onto any of them - observing them as if from a distance.)
Volunteering in a garden for a few hours a week gave me exercise, light and quiet. That gave me the head space I needed to accept the company of others.
It's hard to feel compassion towards yourself, and all too easy to speak to yourself incredibly cruelly. As an exercise, it's worthwhile thinking of someone you like and respect, and sending them kind thoughts; then do the same for a stranger; then someone you really don't like ( everyone seeks happiness and tries to avoid suffering); then do it for yourself. Practice feeling compassion. Don't forget to include yourself.
I hope you find what you need.
Depression is a terrible thing. I've had it myself. You think it's never ending, but that's part of its spell.
I found great solace in getting out into nature. I was able to meditate (just be quiet and let thoughts come and go, not holding onto any of them - observing them as if from a distance.)
Volunteering in a garden for a few hours a week gave me exercise, light and quiet. That gave me the head space I needed to accept the company of others.
It's hard to feel compassion towards yourself, and all too easy to speak to yourself incredibly cruelly. As an exercise, it's worthwhile thinking of someone you like and respect, and sending them kind thoughts; then do the same for a stranger; then someone you really don't like ( everyone seeks happiness and tries to avoid suffering); then do it for yourself. Practice feeling compassion. Don't forget to include yourself.
I hope you find what you need.
Thank you
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I am now. My brother was visiting, so I hadn't been near my computer most of the day.
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